Well, I struggled through almost three months of breastfeeding and now I'm done. Savannah has had a bottle for almost every feeding the past three days. I'm down to pumping only once in the morning and once at night. Formula has been ordered. There's no turning back now. (Frown? Smile? Cry?) I haven't quite gotten over feeling completely guilty, but I can already tell its going to be better for both of us. She is still getting and will continue to get about half a bottle of breast milk until she is about four months old. I have so much stored in the freezer and with pumping twice a day (we will see how long I can keep that going) she will have enough for me to cut her bottles half and half for maybe another month (I hope!).
Already she is happier and I'm happier. She takes the bottle like a champ. If she does scream (which is rarely!), its so much less stressful to be able to set the bottle down and calm her. When you're breastfeeding its a nightmare. And with the bottle she actually stops screaming, instead of screaming through an entire breast feeding AND screaming afterward.
The straw that broke the camels back? My daily headaches that have returned full force. I was able to take a nice vacation from them during pregnancy (yahoo!!), but they are back. Dan and I both decided it is time for me to get back on my migraine medicine which I absolutely can't take while breastfeeding. Dealing with a pounding head and/or a migraine every day of life just isn't worth it. Savannah will grow to be strong and healthy with formula and I'll hopefully get over feeling guilty. BUT I am so glad she will have approximately four months of breast milk!
If anybody has anything negative to say about me switching Savannah to formula, I will beat you up. Then beat you up again.
2 comments:
You aren't a quitter. Sounds like it's best for all. :)
Hey! I'm proud of you! I don't think I would have stuck with it this long if my child screamed in my face every time I tried to feed her :)
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